Every day has something new to learn from

My life is now moving See-Saw way. I'm just unable to control things happining with me. Why? What has happened to me? I myself dont know.

Something is there which influences my life severely. I know that, but don't know why I don't want to control that. Either It's my weak point, Or This wants to indicate something. Does that mean I'm not doing things correctly? I've always try to take over my emotions, but never succeeded. Why? Is emotions invincible? Have I became feable? What has gone wrong?

This moment, I've lost my power of thinking and I'm just feeling like robot without instructions. I need to explore it but really don't know, how. Let's see if things become acceptable itself. But I don't want to let the things happen by itself. I want to win over it. Is it possible.